I can't do it...

Hey blogger,


I'm losing my mind. I have a baby on the way and I'm not ready not by a long shot. Not to mention my bf is going through so much and as much as I want to understand I can't. Like I mean I'm pretty certain he'll leave. Hell my dad did I don't expect much of any man. I know I love him but I have no expectations, I can't get let down that way. My mom did it and I turned out just fine...well...
I mean I just want to like believe he'll step up but right now I have to be a support group. I'm more than that though, I'm also a loving fiancee, a soon to be mother, and a best friend. I am more than just a support group, but right now that is all I'm treated as. I can't even be happy about my baby because of everything that is going on. I mean when do I get to be happy? When he finally is? I can't wait that long. Even if I do it alone I have to prepare for this child and I can't think about myself anymore. It's not about me, it's not about him, it is only about this baby. Everyone needs to accept that, but sadly I'm the only one that gets that.
Well I guess that's all for tonight bloggers

~~Lots of Love
--Hailey