Geez..

Hey bloggers,

Well I'm married now but I'm upset. My hubby is asleep and I tried to cuddle and be loving he wakes up and says "Stop it you touch me too much". Really?! Wtf thank you so much I guess I'll just keep my distance fuck it.

Sorry just needed to rant ttyl :)

Lots of Love
~Hailey

Fuck it all...

Hey bloggers,

I'm pretty determined that I'm going to be the worst mom on the face of the planet. I can't do anything right and if I wasn't pregnant there wouldn't be too much stopping me from just offing myself. The guy I'm in love with called me a whore and I guess he's right. I'm fucking knocked up at 18, I have nothing to offer my soon to be daughter. I don't deserve her, I wish that I would honestly just die I can't stand knowing that my daughter is going to grow up hearing a lot of rumors that her mother is a whore and she'll prob end up a teenage mom just like me. I can't seem to get anything fucking right. I wish things were different but nothing will ever change. I can't do a damn thing right and my daughter will end up hating me. I shouldn't deserve to be pregnant or bring a child into the world. I'm sure Tim is going to leave me, the only reason it seems like he wants to get married is because he doesn't want a "bastard child" as he so lovingly put it. So everyone knows that won't last. It never does. I wish something would just go right for once and I didn't feel like a piece of shit for just one day. That one day would make everything worth it.


~~~Hailey

FML...

hey bloggers,

I don't know what to do anymore, I feel useless all the time. I never do anything right and it seems like my life is just meaning-less. I don't have anyone to talk to anymore and everytime I try to talk to Tim it turns into a fight. Honestly if it weren't for this baby I wouldn't have a reason to get out of bed in the morning, I don't care about work all I want to do is sleep. I hate feeling like this but it's like no matter what I do I'm just a bitch or something stupid like that. He keeps talking about leaving and just paying child support. Maybe he should, I mean I love him but it's like he doesn't love me anymore. He doesn't care, chances are he doesn't even want to be apart of this baby's life. Fuck it all, I might do good as a single mom. My mom did it and I'm not too messed up. I'm tired of always being the bad guy. Just fuck it all I love him too much and that's why I'm going to get hurt in the end LIKE ALWAYS.


Lots of Love

~~~Hailey

Single mom??

Hey bloggers,

I'm about 99% sure that I will end up a single mom. I mean what did I expect, I'm not good enough for anyone to stay with long. I mean I can't expect anything from any man. My dad left me so why would I expect for my babys dad to stay? If I'm such a "shytty ass girlfriend" as you say. I mean like I guess I just have to suck it up and wait untill it happens.
I love him, but I guess that isn't enough.


~Hailey

I just want to cry...

Hey bloggers,


I just wanna cry. I wake up from a nightmare in which tim left me and when i wake up he's gone... what else is new everyone else left why did i expect any different from him??


~~HAiley

I can't do it...

Hey blogger,


I'm losing my mind. I have a baby on the way and I'm not ready not by a long shot. Not to mention my bf is going through so much and as much as I want to understand I can't. Like I mean I'm pretty certain he'll leave. Hell my dad did I don't expect much of any man. I know I love him but I have no expectations, I can't get let down that way. My mom did it and I turned out just fine...well...
I mean I just want to like believe he'll step up but right now I have to be a support group. I'm more than that though, I'm also a loving fiancee, a soon to be mother, and a best friend. I am more than just a support group, but right now that is all I'm treated as. I can't even be happy about my baby because of everything that is going on. I mean when do I get to be happy? When he finally is? I can't wait that long. Even if I do it alone I have to prepare for this child and I can't think about myself anymore. It's not about me, it's not about him, it is only about this baby. Everyone needs to accept that, but sadly I'm the only one that gets that.
Well I guess that's all for tonight bloggers

~~Lots of Love
--Hailey

People Are Fucking Crazy.....

Hey bloggers,

People really are crazy as fuck. I mean what kind of world is this when children get taken out of good homes, families get broken apart. I mean it really is sad, I hate to see this happen to anyone and unfortunatly it's happening right in front of my eyes. It's rediculous that all of this shyt is happening I mean I really hope that some good would happen to this family and this woman rots in the darkest part of hell.



~~~Lots of Love
--HaILEY