Hey bloggers,
I'm pretty determined that I'm going to be the worst mom on the face of the planet. I can't do anything right and if I wasn't pregnant there wouldn't be too much stopping me from just offing myself. The guy I'm in love with called me a whore and I guess he's right. I'm fucking knocked up at 18, I have nothing to offer my soon to be daughter. I don't deserve her, I wish that I would honestly just die I can't stand knowing that my daughter is going to grow up hearing a lot of rumors that her mother is a whore and she'll prob end up a teenage mom just like me. I can't seem to get anything fucking right. I wish things were different but nothing will ever change. I can't do a damn thing right and my daughter will end up hating me. I shouldn't deserve to be pregnant or bring a child into the world. I'm sure Tim is going to leave me, the only reason it seems like he wants to get married is because he doesn't want a "bastard child" as he so lovingly put it. So everyone knows that won't last. It never does. I wish something would just go right for once and I didn't feel like a piece of shit for just one day. That one day would make everything worth it.
~~~Hailey
